I recently discovered why I don't do as well in school as I probably could,

I don't take very good notes . . .

I'm happy just because, I found out I am really no one.

I absolutely LOVE this music video, and this song. I watch it when I'm having a bad day, I first saw it on a Paste DVD a few years back and have been in love with Bright Eyes ever since. (I am aware that everyone who listens to bright Eyes these days is considered a waanabee indie poser, so think what you want, but I really love their music) Even more than this I love the music video for "I must belong somewhere" but that one wouldn't let me post it here. 




Maybe because the other sister and soon to be brother in law are here and there's been nothing but wedding talk all weekend, or because this valentines day reminds me of what I was doing last valentines day, or maybe everyone else is just bringing me down, but I'm slightly beginning to see why people are depressed on this day. I still stick to my belief though that it's overrated and a little ridiculous. I miss when I was little and we all made valentines day boxes and construction paper valentines and mum would buy us little presents and the whole day was just a nice excuse to wear pink and use glitter glue. 

Happy Valentines day to all. I will be spending the day  hanging out with my younger, but much cooler than I will ever be, little sister who opted out of an "eating junk food, watching chick flicks and thinking about how we are single" night with her friends. Apparently if you are 13 and single it's a great tragedy.  There is talk of a Smoothie King run or maybe some Maggie Moos.  I think it's going to be a good day. 

Places about town.

Home again, home again . . .

When you are a college student sometimes the wonderful thing about coming home has nothing to do with seeing your family at all, sometimes it is just nice to be in a house. It's nice to take a shower without having to wear flip flops. (or better yet, take a bath.) It's nice to eat food that wasn't made in a cafeteria or a microwave and to be around pets that aren't beta fish. It's nice to live in more than one room and actually be able to be in a room by yourself. It's nice having a bed you can spread out in, and walls you can stick tacks in and the ability to do laundry without having to wait until 2:00am when no one else is trying to do it. There is this incredibly comforting sense of normalcy that I get from being in my house. 

So it may be because I was taking photos while it was snowing on me, or maybe because my camera is jank, or my computer is old or some sort of combination of the three or it may be because of some other completely separate random reason, but when I was trying to upload some photos from my camera on to my computer, they ended up all looking a little like this: 

I have no idea how this happened but I am slightly in to the way they look, I'm wondering if there's a way to do this on purpose . . .

Reasons today is happy.

I oddly like the way cigarettes smell. 

people think this is gross, but it's not the actual smell of the cigarette, it's the fact that the cigarette smells like so much else. 

Cigarettes smell like late night porch conversations, and summers, and boys I have kissed, and rehearsal breaks, and parties and concerts and people I've met and one of my best friends. Because of one particular person in her life my sister claims cigarettes smell like being in love. I don't know about that one, but I do find the scent somewhat comforting sometimes. I don't want everything I come in contact with to smell that way. But I enjoy the little moments in life that smell like cigarettes.

Hey guess what?

 it's snowing :)

"It's hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world" -American Beauty. 

"This is unlike the story it was written to be"

Remember that time my alarm didn't go off so I took a nap and missed by 2:45 math class? yeah, I've officially done that for the first time this semester, I'm amazed it took me so long. 

 I love Carla Bruni and Emilliana Torini, they are both perfect studying music. I have an intense amount of studying to do, to the point where I probably should not be on the internet at all. 

Once again, for the 4th year in a row, I will not be going to Mardi Gras because I have a rehearsal that I can't get out of. Seriously, I have lived in this area since I was 16 and I have never once been. Instead I will be spending the weekend with the sister and her fiance who are coming to visit for the weekend. ah well, should still be fun. 

I am not a fan of valentines day, not because I am single (I was not single last valentines day and I still was not a fan) but because everyone makes such a huge deal about how depressing it is, seriously if one more person asks if I want to attend "singles awareness day" on facebook, I am going to be very annoyed.  It's a catholic saints feast day, Saint Valentine was a priest. He was single his whole life. Now I'm not super religious, I'm not saying we should only celebrate it as a holy day, I like chocolate as much as the next person (lies, I hate chocolate, but you get my point) but seriously the reason it's so depressing is because everyone makes it that way by over doing the whole "I am single on valentines day" thing. Seriously the single people I know make a bigger deal out of valentines day then the people I know in relationships. 

If you are single this one day it is not a reason to freak out and spend the entire day watching sleepless in Seattle and eating ice cream straight from the container. Actually that sounds fun, you don't need a reason to do that. I will join you in that, but not because I'm single, and not because it's valentines day.