Scenes from the best day ever.

J. Crew, marriage vows, sparklers and cigarettes.

weddings and things.

In less than 48 hours my oldest sister is getting married. The past couple months have been an insane whirlwind of making seating charts, decorating place cards and testing wedding cake frosting. It's weird that after Saturday it's going to be done. As excited as I am about this wedding and as happy as I am about getting such an amazing brother in law who has really become part of our family, it's strange to think that Hannah is going to be married, she'll have a husband and a new family and she'll like be an adult and shit. It's hard to explain but it just feels very weird.

I am pretty sure I shall not be having a wedding. Not to say that I won't get married, but the whole wedding thing is a little too intense for me. I think I'll have like a picnic with 9 people or something like that. I don't need colour schemes and appetizer menus.

I am excited though, it's going to be a beautiful wedding, I was kind of kind of dubious of the idea of having the reception in the barn but it really turned out lovely. I shall post photos at some point. My dad's family arrived today and my mother's crazy scottish family get here tomorrow. I don't think we've ever had both sides of the family together before (except for maybe at my parents wedding) so this is going to be great.


I need to wake up early to help arrange bouquets so I'm going to sleep now.

The Velveteen Rabbit

"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in your joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

Today I got some sad news.

Rest in peace Bethan. I wish I would have had the opportunity to know you better but I always enjoyed the conversations we did have. You were such a sweet girl and will be missed by everyone you knew. No one at school will ever forget you.

When I wake up with 24 dollars and a full tank of gas . . .